Express Yourself

Hey

I remember

Back in the third grade

Is when I noticed

I was not the same

As the other kids

Teacher couldn’t deal with me

Feel me

But this the real me

And I always kept it real see

Still do

I thought it so much then

Now I just think of you

Question everything

Blue sheets

Anytime I did anything

So I skip ahead

To something like grade five

Where I was hanging with the older kids

Always too old for this

I guess that meant

Trashing someone’s place

When I was a kid

I was a disgrace

It happened early on

Sorry dad sorry mom

But I got it out of the way

I left all that behind me

I went my own way though

But you can stick beside me

From then ‘til the end

I got picked on

But they ain’t never change me

It just shows your weakness,

They ain’t never phase me

I only cared about you

Cause you’re amazing

I’m mad at you

Nah I’m mad at me

So that’s okay

If they talking shit

It’s cause I let them say

So that they can stay

But sometimes I’m human

So sue me

I live my life a movie

Feeling so loopy

Like snoopy

Events occurred

And I was spent you see

I took on every bully

Eventually

I’m not proud of violence

I’m proud of doing something

Other than my silence

They only hurt themselves

I’m already dead inside

In this hell

I was one of few

That noticed

We’re all locked in a cell

End my own thoughts

I might as well

I already said I’m dead

I’m like lead

I don’t mind

I don’t feel anything

Not your insults or your compliments

Since you people only care

About accomplishments

No consequence

I’ll accomplish

This

For my ma and pa

Who just wanted grandkids

If I live long enough to meet a girl

That understands this

Ring on your hand miss

Making all my plans with

Maybe baby

I’ll stop smoking

My life away

And give you

All of my time of day

But lately I’ve been feeling like no one

Could have my baby

Hazy

Crazy

I can’t even comprehend

What’s been going on lately?

Keep looking at my shroom powder

Wondering

So I count the hours

It would last

Would I trip badly like the last?

It just shows me what I need to see

But I already know it’s sadness

That’s my poetry

I still needed you to notice me

Get away from the madness

Talk shit once

And they’ll have a therapist

Interrogating you like a terrorist

Probably all state funded anyway

And my worst enemy

Isn’t ISIS

It isn’t the feds

They just like boogeyman

Bugs under my bed

But no

My worst enemy is the man in me

Questioning everything

Specifically my sanity

Wondering if it was always my fault

Won’t let me get my fantasies

Time bomb

Blow up in my face later

If I’m wrong

And if I’m right

They’re mad they were mistaken

That’s just my take and

I would still get down

So I think I might as well

Be real, no faking

This is it I predict it

I ripped this

And live this shit

I’m already manifesting all this shit

Without it being my intention

All this aggression is just

What I expected

Whether or not I mentioned

I was never asking

For all of your attention

I just wanted it to work

You got me venting

And when I said I care for you

I meant it

You got to express yourself sometimes

Cause hate’s relentless

And my hearts racing

And my hearts racing

And my hearts racing for you

I don’t give no one my space babe

I don’t know what I’m trying to do

I don’t give nobody space babe

I don’t know what I’m trying to do

I’m in space babe

And my hearts racing for you

Sometimes

You just got to express yourself