Anxious

Getting anxious

A little bit dangerous

Scottychams is always on that dank shit

Daily so I don’t sank ships

If I have anything to say

Girl, I’d say this

You should of known

You my favorite

I was always waiting

And hoping for the day when

We both get saved and

It all goes a hunnet

Could have nicknames

And called each other honey

But waiting never does shit

We meet up on the monthly

I’m never one to fuck with

I’m always on something

You cut me off for

Being on

I call out you for being wrong

Playing my songs

Funny how we always say

Go ahead and move along

Cause they play us like pawns

And we never seem budge

Not one to judge

I’ve been running on a budget

Month to month shit

Financially I was struggling

Always on the grind

Always working I be hustling

Yeah I know you loved it

We always had our fun yet

Hopeless romantic

I want to watch the sun set

And with my antics

These plans get

Out of hand

No, I can’t be with you

I’d love to be your man

I just hope you understand

But I ain’t done yet

I don’t want to rack the regrets

Always leave you impressed

So I do my best

Make due with an impression

Just to make you laugh

See you smile

It’s a blessing

I ain’t seen you in awhile

It’s that’s the best when

I can be your joy

I’ve known you for so long

I was just a boy

Soon I’ll be gone

Being coy

Like I’ve deployed

And this no never ending story

It’s a ploy

And it’s one that’s getting boring

Wasting what’s important

Leave, I start going

Belief is just hoping

You slammed the door shut

So how could I be open?

Always choose more sin

Always feel remorse with

I pour in

Time to the grind

And after

There’s nothing left

But a void for the laughter

And rapture

Wouldn’t stress me none

If I can’t be with you

That’s torture enough

Do what you want in life

Cause with love I’m a bluff

Trying stay tough

Trust should make up

Lines I take up

If we met up today

It’d be a fake fuck

Cause some bullshit friends for lunch

I know you’re trying to crunch

For time

But our worries coincide

Being open with you

Cause I know you’d never lie

But what the fuck is life?

I ain’t never see the signs

My heart’s been frozen

I can’t smoke to this

If I can’t hold and kiss

You

I’m in a mixed mood

About my muse

She gets me riled up

In the best way too and

Now I’m just trying kill that feeling

So I spit in the booth

Take the stress

Make it realness

Take the love

Let you feel it

No more concealed feelings

I’m anxious as hell

Trying to cope and let you deal with

The ceiling you’ve hit

Now its healing that lifts

Yo your spirits

Eclipsed

With all said and done

You’ll be the only one I miss

Til I trip on 6 figures

Or gunned by trigger fingers

Just itching for a stinger

I’m wishing for a singer

With low means

Always tryna celebrate

You know me

Heat up with vape

While I’m living in hell

Or is this purgatory

Shit

I can’t really tell

Cause I co-create

And blaze out with a flame

Progress is change

But the pains stay the same

I took responsibility

And you can give the blame

Just a stain in the game

Rapping my soul all the way through the maze

That we call life

Where there’s wrong and there’s right

But it could all be a lie

It could all be a lie

Psychosis

Got me anxious

I’m gone